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3 Years of Kolme(ish)!

29/03/2026

While Kolme hasn't been around for even a year, on the 29th of March 2023 I created my Neocities account! Though I don't consider this Kolme's official birthday, I think it still calls for a bit of celebration (as long as I can get this update out on time). When I first heard of Neocities I thought it was something incredible, yet unattainable. I loved the idea of making a website, but I didn't know anything about coding at all, and just assumed that I would give up on it because I lacked the drive to pursue something entirely new. After lying dormant for just over two years, I finally picked up the Windows Notepad and got to learning HTML!

I think a big fear I and a lot of others have when pursuing new things is the fear of being untrue to oneself. I've always been very indecisive, when asked as a kid what I wanted to be when I grew up I would always just shrug my shoulders and hope that some idea of my future would just arrive at the doorstep of my brain someday. I carried this mentality with me through a lot of my youth, not putting effort into hobbies because they didn't come naturally to me. Almost ten years ago, however, I made the conscious decision to start drawing while searching "anime girl drawing" on Pinterest for the umpteenth time, and having the realization that I wanted to do that. When I started to draw it definitely did not feel natural, and I would get extremely frustrated with myself when I couldn't put my mind to the paper, but for some reason I kept drawing. I definitely didn't "feel" like an artist, and I still don't really, but I'm entirely sure that without art I would be living a completely different life. Art wasn't something that happened to me naturally, like I said it was a conscious decision. So conscious, in fact, that I still have the first drawing that I made "as an artist" pictured right (it's funny, I still have pretty much the same artstyle lol), but it's become such a foundational part of myself. When I made my Neocities account three years ago today, I "knew" that I would never actually make a site, but it was still a nice thought. Three years later and things are very different! I never thought that I could be the type of person to code, to learn another language, or to draw, but here we are now...

With all that said and done, happy Kolme Day to those who celebrate (me!!!) and here's to creating yourself!

Year in Review

08/JAN/2026

Happy New Year! Wow, it's been almost HALF OF A YEAR since my last blog post, and updates to kolme have been extremely sparse!!!! This is my bad obviously, I told myself I would take some time away from kolme to focus on other things I'm passionate about, and kind of got lost in the sauce. Anyways, I'm back now (hopefully)! With the new year bringing fresh starts and bouts of motivation, I've been itching to return to kolme Full Time and fully revamp this site! Now, realistically speaking, the mere possibility of that even happening is, at the very least, weeks away, as I'm not fully commited to return just yet. An excuse I can pull for why I abandonded kolme for so long and am postponing coming back issss....

My computer is ill!!

At the beginning of 2025, my PC, which I built in late 2020, started bluescreening randomly while doing mundane tasks. This has been going on for well over a year by now, and even during kolme's early production I faced a handful of bluescreens and crashes. I don't want to make this a technical rant about the ins and outs of what may be causing this and the tests that I ran, just know that it was ntoskrnl.exe related, usually while idle or playing sporcle quizzes (loll). Soon after publishing kolme, the bluescreens started becoming more and more frequent, at the end of November I was getting about 2 a week. While that isn't bad at all as far as bluescreen issues go, I still didn't want it to continue to get worse, so I stopped using my computer as much... and after fully fixing up my old laptop, I would only turn my computer on to draw. I haven't had a bluescreen in about a month, but at the cost of a fear of using my computer. Once a solution is found (that hopefully isn't replacing my motherboard...) kolme work should be back in full swing!

On the topic of 2025, it's done!! I feel very fulfilled because I stuck to a lot of my goals and made a lot of strides towards becoming who I want to be! Kolme was definitely a goal of mine that I told myself to finally just up and do, and I feel very accomplished because of it! Some other goals that I smashed through were drawing more frequently, animating at least one big project, listening to more music, and reading 10 books (ok I only read 9 but one of those was Les Misérbles!! AND I read it in only 6 weeks!!).

Not sure how I want to end this. Hopefully the next log will have some pictures or something to liven things up.

Blog Entry 1

24/JUL/2025

I can't believe it! Kolme goes up today!!! This feels so surreal to me, because I've been working on kolme on and off for over three months now. IT'S FINALLY GOING TO EXIST FOR REAL!! I feel a lot calmer working on it now, knowing that I'm not just going to up and abandon it (and even if I do, I can still say I DID it!). It's just the beginning! I'm just so excited!!

Yes, it's true... kolme is very much under construction at the moment. A lot of graphics are temporary, like the favicon , which I just ripped from a CD of Adobe Illustrator I found (though I kind of like how it looks...) and pretty much all of the navigation buttons that I made in like 3 minutes. Backgrounds, fonts, the entire color scheme of this blog page... pretty much everything I'm considering temporary. I'm still confident uploading kolme in this state, because I hope that in the future I can look back after restyling the site a million times and go "wow! Humble beginnings! So primitive!"

I'm kind of just rambling here, it's early in the morning as I'm writing this, I've been up since 6am. I don't know why, but I like to get up early to work on kolme, it just feels kind of peaceful to put on some slow track and just type and code into the sunrise. However, I also like going to bed late, and have been getting probably five hours of sleep every night for the past week or so. If there are any grave errors on kolme, you can thank my strange obsession with late and early serenity.

On my early morning kolme shifts, I've been listening to Blondshell's cover of The Summer Ends (by American Football). Even though it's incredibly slow, it helps me wake up, and I like lying in my bed for ten minutes before turning my computer on with it on loop watching the sky turn red. It triggers this nonspecific comforting nostalgic memory I have of being in elementary school and getting up early to catch the bus. I'm excited for autumn this year, though, I guess, I'm always excited for autumn, and then when it's here it's still just hot. I was excited for summer this year, but it's been pretty lame so far. The moral of the story is to be excited for the now, which I am because of KOLME!!!!!!!!!

I want to kind of take a break now that kolme's released. Not for very long, just kind of shift it onto the back burner again. Next up though, I definitely want to optomize for laptops and smaller monitors in general (cause mine is like a 19"/48cm diagonal, it's a damn TV basically), not for phones yet, cause I think I'll make a completely different layout for them and I want to make sure that everything's in place before I start any of that. After that (or maybe before..?), get the art section up and running. I'm not crazy about starting the Collections in the Links page, the idea hasn't really fully formed in my head yet, so I'll let things play out as they go.

That's all I have to say for now I think. Blog posts, as you may be able to tell, will be sporadic without much spel chejcking. Just kind of a dumping ground within a dumping ground. I really don't want to get super personal with these, cause I don't want this to be just a public diary. I guess I'll see how things go, figure out what I do and don't want to discuss. In the meantime, I don't forsee many blog posts in the near future (but I may be wrong...).